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Many dreams come true... and some have silver linings. I live for my dream, and a pocket full of gold.

Led Zeppelin

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My walk with God literally did not exist in my life until November, 2008. The few months prior to that, I felt curiosity and passion for this new kind of life bubbling inside me, but I didn't yet have the means to accept Jesus.

Since originally believing, I've been confused, flat out failed, given up, turned away from God and His laws, decided that I knew better than HE did, and lost my fire for Jesus multiple times. Each time I tried to live for my own pursuits instead of His, and depression and insecurity broke me down even further.

I was a slave to my pride for all of those years, thinking that everything good in my life was a result of my hard work and my being a good person; that I deserved everything I got.

But I don't. I am so blessed for everything I have; a roof over my head, food to eat, water to drink, a loving family and awesome friends, and a young man I am head over heels, soul-mate-in-love with. But I never did anything great to deserve this life. I was born, and I try to treat people right, but I'm by NO means perfect; not even slightly heroic, or deserving of the grace I've been given. I'm really selfish actually, among many other negative qualities.

Everything in life is a gift. Every day, every moment, every glimpse of beauty.

These gifts are from the One who made them. Who sculpted the earth and the heavens, and who brought you and I into creation. I don't believe you have to choose between God and science. Science is a collective study of the literal explanations for how God created, and continues to create, the universe.

The one thing that brought me to faith in Jesus, even though I had already been to years of church and bible school, was seeing a room full of thousands of people who loved him, who were singing songs and playing loud and AWESOME music to the glory of God.

And for the first time in my life I felt -- I BELIEVED that there are everyday people like you and me who are in LOVE with their Creator - there IS a Creator. They weren't there because they were FORCED to be there-- they were truly there to worship, to love, and to praise!

To me, growing up in a stifled church with an atheist mind, seeing, feeling, hearing, and believing what was going on was truly the impossible. And it was real.

There was no altar, no robes, no organ, and the teachers of God's word never claimed to have God's "power" to "bestow blessings" or be perfect. These were true Jesus lovers who weren't violently protesting or radically insane. That these people, real Christians, are out there, and they are doing their best to practice what they preach.

This is my testimony. I've given my heart to God and I will worship Him for the rest of my life, no matter what anyone else says; True faith is believing in something even when the world tells you not to. The world tells us to go out and fulfill our desires, whatever they may be, and that the closest you can get to God is a drug high, or sexual satisfaction. That we know what's best for us, and everyone else is the one with the problem.

What anyone can tell you is there is no secret to happiness; each time you get what you THINK will "finally" make you "happy," it fades; then what's left? The pursuits of humankind on earth always leave you empty. That's what I've found, at least.

God says; Do not be consumed by worldly things. He knows how much corruption there is in this world that claims to be Him, the truth and the way. He wants to help us out of this bondage that we are so ensnared into. Christianity is the act of committing yourself to God on a daily basis; seeking him through prayer and the scriptures and admiring his creations, and accepting the sacrifice Jesus made for us.

You might be thinking, "There's nothing wrong with my life. I'm not in bondage. I'm perfectly happy doing life the way I've been, I've got my moral compass and I don't need Christianity."

If this is you, I hope for your sake that you won't always be as close-minded as I once was. There is no such thing as a perfect life on Earth. You might think you're fine now, but the tragedy and brokenness befalls us all. And when it falls on you, will you know who's there to pick you up?

God is compassionate and faithful to those who persistently believe. He teaches us the most through hardships, but he always carries us through. Christianity is this relationship with God; not the corruptions we see on TV or the movies, not Fred Phelps and Westboro Baptist church, not the lies and twisted rules of Catholicism and the "holiness" of the Pope.

Jesus came to bring us back to God and set the path of man straight. HE came to BE WITH US. All he asks is that we seek to be with him, too.

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